Tuning into Authenticity

a reflective journal entry xx

Last week was one of those weeks where every other meeting cancelled. I’m obviously blaming Mercury Retrograde for everything - '“surely it’s a portal?!’ 🪐✨

I had planned to write this from a pub in Bedford where I was due to film something fun, but that got pulled last minute. I was due to be in London 3 times this week and that’s all been wiped. I’d be lying if I said it’s not hard to stay positive when these things happen. I want to share this side of life, as everything is always so focussed on the finished product rather than the process. Sometimes, it’s tough!

It makes me reflect on leaving Isle of Paradise. It was 100% the right thing for me to do, but working out this new existence and the routine it comes with is taking time… but (and this is growth) - I’m ok with it.

I like it in fact.

I’m rolling and flowing with the natural pace ✌🏼

I dig it and for the first time ever in my life, I feel like I’m really tuning into who I am. This morning as the sun beams into our garden I went outside to pick tulips for our kitchen island. Utter bliss. I’m feeling more authentic than ever before. I’m noticing it in how I’m dressing, who I’m talking (or not talking) to anymore, and where in the house I’m spending my time. My energy is shifting, I can feel it happening. I’m returning to self.

I’m really tuning into my inner creative, something I think has been neglected as I’ve been in such a business brand world. As AI slowly infiltrates everything (like WTF is it doing on my Whatsapp?) I’ve started exploring things that feed my creative brain. Music, art, colour, texture - because true ideas, real creativity, that inner groovy hippy trippy light - is the one thing AI will never be able to touch.

AI can’t create true authenticity - it can just copy it. Dullness copies. I felt that all the time through my Isle of Paradise journey. Other brands would take ideas, copy brand tag lines and new products and co-workers would even mimic ideas onto other brands. The thing is, when you’re the one producing the ideas, those who can’t create will copy. Such is life!

With the launch of The Confidence Ritual pending (omfg) at first I pranged out that similar people within the wellness space were also releasing books on similar topics. I panicked that because I wasn’t an experienced author that my book would fall to the wayside.

Pessimism is a form of protection, and I needed to go into that feeling of uncomfortable anxiety and sit in it. I was nervous! Putting a book out into the world is fucking terrifying!

However, I know I have written it with deepest honesty, with the lessons I have learnt offline. I truly hope they will help others to live their life at a higher frequency!

So I guess this weeks Substack is more of a behind the curtain piece. A world of no’s and being ok with it, exploring the inner creative, being nervous and excited at the same time, and not fearing AI. This is what’s whirring around my head today.

I love reading your comments, it makes me feel like I’m not talking to myself! Love to connect with you!

Love Always XX Jules